An Introduction...Sort Of

So I looked up a 30 day blog challenge online, because I thought it sounded like a good idea. But let's be honest, I'm not going to blog every single day for 30 days. I can barely handle writing these every few months. It's called 'non-consistency'... or laziness, take your pick. Anyway, I thought I would just look up some ideas to write about, because I never have any clue what topic I want to ramble on about. I always feel like I need something important and memorable to talk about, so I don't know how deep these next posts are going to get, but I'll try and make them as interesting as possible.

The first thing on the list is an introduction and picture of yourself.  Well, I am not good at introductions.  It's like in school when the teacher says "we're going to go around the room and say something interesting about ourselves." Yeah right. I mean, when I'm asked to tell a room of strangers something "interesting" about myself, it's basically the peak of my social anxiety.  First off, there's no possible way I'm going to be able to think of anything to say.  All my interests and hobbies are instantly cast away into the black abyss of my mind that gets taken over when I am put on the spot in situations like this.  There are an array of things flying through my head at this time, things like, "what do I say? What are my interests? Do I even have interests? Not really, I just sit at home! I like cats. No, I can't say I like cats. I watch a lot of Netflix. No that's weird. I can't be the weirdo!" (Another example of me caring too much of what people think). Secondly, no one actually cares to hear me ramble about something "interesting" about myself. Honestly, I could care less what they all have to say, so why should they care what I like doing in my spare time? I'm there to learn math or biology or whatever, not learn useless facts about my peers, whom I probably hate anyway.  So why do teachers and professors do this? WHO KNOWS! It seems no matter how old you get or whatever higher education you're in, "tell us something interesting about yourself" never ever goes away. They probably just like watching the fear in people's eyes and laughing at people like me, with enough social awkwardness to share with everyone. Oh, and don't even get me started on the other dreaded sentence, "everyone find a partner."

This wasn't really an introduction about myself. It was more of an expression of my hate for introductions. Which is just as good, and better than a "get to know you". I like these kind of posts, so maybe I'll write more of them. There's a good chance they'll be about why I fail at life and my sarcastic remarks about things. That's what I'm best at. Failing and sarcasm. Okay, bye.

Mak.



Here's a picture of me holding a shark and wearing some swaggy tie-dye.

A New Year

It has recently become a new year and we have left 2014 behind. And I'm not too sad about that. I mean, 2014 wasn't a bad year or anything, but it wasn't exactly what I would call the 'greatest most awesome year of years'. I'm still waiting for that one. I wish I could say that I knew everything and have it all figured out after this past year. But really, I think I ended my 20th year of life with more questions than answers.

You know when you finally make a big decision about something, and then after you wonder if it really was the right decision? Well, that's been my train of thought for the last few months.  I figured making a choice about something, that is potentially life changing, would better my life and promote maximum happiness. But all in all, I feel exactly the same as I did before making that decision.  Which leads me to believe that we make our own happiness in life. We can't depend on others or concrete items or simple ideas to make us happy.  No one is going to just hand us bliss, we have to go searching, or else we'll never find it... And this is where my uncertainty comes in about my decision.  I thought I had searched, but in reality there is SO much more out there for me to find. And who's to say my happiness, or anyone's is sitting right here next to us.  It's impossible to know exactly what you want when you haven't gone out looking.

So yeah, a new year, blah blah blah... I won't make any resolutions; I think they're dumb and you don't need the beginning of January to make a change in your life. I really don't have any high expectations for 2015 either (how pessimistic), because in reality, a year's a year and they're all relevant. Some more than others, but again, it's what we choose to make of that year that makes it special. Not the year itself. So if anything, I want this new year to be another happy one. I'm just going to take it as it comes and try not to stress about the small things. Because life is short and I swear these years keep getting shorter...

Mak.