A New Year

It has recently become a new year and we have left 2014 behind. And I'm not too sad about that. I mean, 2014 wasn't a bad year or anything, but it wasn't exactly what I would call the 'greatest most awesome year of years'. I'm still waiting for that one. I wish I could say that I knew everything and have it all figured out after this past year. But really, I think I ended my 20th year of life with more questions than answers.

You know when you finally make a big decision about something, and then after you wonder if it really was the right decision? Well, that's been my train of thought for the last few months.  I figured making a choice about something, that is potentially life changing, would better my life and promote maximum happiness. But all in all, I feel exactly the same as I did before making that decision.  Which leads me to believe that we make our own happiness in life. We can't depend on others or concrete items or simple ideas to make us happy.  No one is going to just hand us bliss, we have to go searching, or else we'll never find it... And this is where my uncertainty comes in about my decision.  I thought I had searched, but in reality there is SO much more out there for me to find. And who's to say my happiness, or anyone's is sitting right here next to us.  It's impossible to know exactly what you want when you haven't gone out looking.

So yeah, a new year, blah blah blah... I won't make any resolutions; I think they're dumb and you don't need the beginning of January to make a change in your life. I really don't have any high expectations for 2015 either (how pessimistic), because in reality, a year's a year and they're all relevant. Some more than others, but again, it's what we choose to make of that year that makes it special. Not the year itself. So if anything, I want this new year to be another happy one. I'm just going to take it as it comes and try not to stress about the small things. Because life is short and I swear these years keep getting shorter...

Mak.